Sadness

Sad...

Sadness....


By looking at the word 'SAD', an undescribeable feeling emerges from nowhere....
no one can perfectly define sadness in words or gestures as it brings deeper meanings than it looks...
but to describe 'Sadness' in short, we can acknowledge it as the absence of happiness.

One can only feels it when one is IN it.

In life, there is no way one can escape oneself from sadness....
even for an optimistic or a cheerful or even a happy-go-lucky guy, one will suffer from sadness, for sure....
and, sadness brings along discouragement, disappointment, anger and other negative emotions.

Inevitably, those negatives thoughts or emotions will give rise to sadness......forming a vicious cycle.....

I feel sad when I'm not with my family,
this sadness is known as Home-sick.
Without family members around me, I feel insecure and helpless....
I'm independent, but not emotionally....as my family is my support, my everything....
I'm brave, but I still afraid of losing my family...especially my parents......
I'm optimistic, but my mood swings along with my family.....
Aww, what to do? I'm a Cancer.

I feel sad when I could not get the result that I want,
even thought I've told myself result is nothing but numbers and grades....
but it seems like I just cannot get through it.
There are voices deep within myself, asking and asking....
Why others can score better than me?
Why I'm not the one with an A??
Why my result just can't get any better???
and why I'm so tagged by my result????

I feel sad when I'm betrayed.
No one likes to be betrayed, I guess.
Betrayal is like cheating, lying, taking advantages of one and dump one like rubbish.
Wouldn't it be better if we treat each other nicely, take care of others' feelings like our own?

"Damn, I'm surrounded!

I'm surrounded by sadness. I can't escape from sadness. Does this make me a 'Sadist'?

Why my life is surrounded by such negative energy??

Oh man, my life is full of darkness!"

For most of my time, I'm dwelling in these stupid thoughts, trying to get out from there but caught up in the end. Man, what's wrong with me??

Finally, I realize that - it's all inside my head.

All because of me :

being a weakling, mentally and emotionally ;

being a crybaby when a challenge appears ;

being blinded by negative forces ;

being stupid and blaming others for my misfortune ;

being pampered and losing of hope easily ;

being fooled by my own short-sighted ; and

being attached and forget to let go....

I know, I know,

I already know nothing is perfect in this world,

and because of this, we have to learn,

learn how to accept the fact, and not twisting it or avoiding it,

learn the way the Earth moves as well as the law of nature.......

So,

All I need to do, is to let go....

Change my mind and thoughts,

and of course, change my view towards everything....

and hopefully, there will be no sadness around me,

just tranquility and peace.....